PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

I am grappling with the idea of death as in ego death, since this is the next phase of my spiritual work.  To be honest, it scares me or maybe it scares my ego.  I have never existed without ego, don’t know how it will feel, or who I will become after ego death.  I hope and pray for a kind death.

I know that this is a hurdle that we all must face during our spiritual journey, and is necessary to reach rebirth.  I fear the unfamiliar, and possibly losing those in my life. It’s like gambling where we can win the jackpot or go home with nothing; we have no idea what will happen when we enter the casino.

I have felt my higher self emerge more and more, and my ego is less prominent, but I still feel it rearing it’s head often during each day. I bring awareness to my reactions and feel I’m being tested with very difficult events occurring in my life right now.  Each event brings the challenge to refrain from my ego responses of blame, fear of failure, lack of self worth, and feeling frustrated and angry.  Today was one such day.

Only upon this death of ego will there be the rebirth and the emergence of my true self or higher self. May we all find our way through the darkness. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)