Since beginning ascension work, I have learned to feel my emotions deeply, while before I suppressed most of my emotions and ran away from these feelings out of fear. Now, I stay with these feelings to fully acknowledge and accept my feelings. The most difficult emotion for me has been love. In the past, love has always been a great loss for me. I perceived love to hurt me, and to lose someone I love every time I learned to love them.
My perception of love is very different now. It is never a loss now, but an opportunity to love another person. As they leave my life for whatever reason, it feels bitter sweet that It was yet another opportunity to share my heart with them and not another time that another has abandoned me. This change has allowed me to let others go without feeling angry, abandoned, or afraid. My memory of them is of fondness and warmth.
This is how I have always wanted to feel in my life. I realize now that I am happy and feel loved with or without them for I still love myself and will okay without them. This sense of self love and reliance is utter freedom from the fear of being alone, of being abandoned, and of being afraid. When we grow up, we face the world with the grace of an adult, and not the grief of a child. Blessings of love to you, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Burrowing Owl Press/Brooke Chang with All Rights Reserved)