Since the age of eight, I have been seeking one thing and that is to have happiness and peace in my life. As a child, I saw my world full of fear and pain. Every interaction since then has repeated this fear and pain in my life. I suffered from anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts as a result of my childhood abuse that left fear and pain with me for most of my life.
Through most of my adult life, I was in psychological counseling trying to find my way out of this fear and pain. As I healed, I saw more and more light and joy in my life. With each effort in my recovery, I began to see sunshine through the cloud of darkness and despair. Although it was not until I raised my Kundalini energy that I was confronted head on with my childhood trauma when I realized that in my current life I was replaying my childhood trauma over and over again.
When I came to this realization, I began to practice ascension work of healing my childhood trauma. I became fully aware of what was happening to me, and my blinders of denial came off. Once we can see clearly after awakening, we can no longer deny our reality to ourselves. Now, we must face our fears and confront our pain no matter how difficult or ugly it may be.
Once we can see with our eyes wide open, we must begin to change our actions and behaviors through our intentions. This is what happened to me. It has been arduous and scary to relive so much of what I have wanted to suppress and deny, but those days are over for me. After walking this new path of ascension, I have begun to see joy, bliss, and light in my life.
These changes have been so dramatic albeit with difficulties and hardships, but I have realized my own courage in all this and recognized how strong I am to overcome all that I have suffered. It is through this suffering that has made me appreciate what I have now in my life, and I give thanks for my blessings. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Burrowing Owl Press/Brooke Chang with All Rights Reserved)
2 thoughts on “Finding What I Seek”
Your story mirrors mine so closely. I feel like I have looked at the trauma I experienced as a child. Faced it. Yet sometimes it feels as though there is yet another corner not uncovered. Something I saw that my mind won’t accept. And it holds me in place. Keeps me from moving forward. Should I care and just let it go? I feel like possibly this dark corner is an illusion keeping me from being who I am now. Does that make sense?
Thank you for sharing your experiences with me! I have shared the same exact experiences, and this is how I look at it. I believe that our ascension path is ever evolving path spiraling upward. We may be addressing the same issues but from a different perspective, and I simply accept this path for what it is that my soul must expereience. It is not to keep me in the same place, but to help me move ever upward from a different view. I believe this evolution will take me throughout my soul life. Here is my post on this topic: https://kundalinidotorg.wordpress.com/2013/10/19/the-path-of-my-soul-life/ Blessings of light, Brooke