PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

Jealousy is a common human emotion created within ego.  As I have been suffering from this negative emotion all my life, I begin to understand the underlying cause for this jealousy.  It is the lack of self worth and feeling unworthy of love.  We all have some level of lack of self esteem, but I feel that my childhood trauma resulted in my extreme low self esteem no matter how much I accomplish in my life.

This jealousy arises like a tidal wave when my painbody is triggered. Recently, I went through several bouts of my painbody being triggered.  The emotional pain was so intolerable that I had to run away from this pain. When I am truly honest with myself, I realize that this emotional pain triggered in my painbody is old, old karmic pain that is stored in a very deep layer within my painbody.   I believe that my jealousy stems from many lifetimes of feeling inadequate, unworthy of love, and not good enough.

As I begin to explore these emotional pains, I begin to learn to love myself, and accept myself for who I am.  Be okay with who I am now, even if I feel jealousy, and forgive myself for feeling this way.  When we learn to love ourselves even with our flaws, we don’t wait for others to accept our flaws as it no longer matter.  It is we who matter what we think about ourselves that determines our self worth.  Once we reach this place, it really doesn’t matter what the world thinks about us. May you find self love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)