Freedom from Dependency

As I enter my new phase of emotional healing and spiritual growth, I am experiencing a new state of being.  It is one that I have had glimpse of but never for long periods of time in the past. This feeling is one where I no longer feel this void in my life. In the past, when I was alone or with much down time, I needed to pick up the phone to call or text someone.  I did this to fill this loneliness within me, like a void or emptiness.

Also, in the past, I tried to fill this void with activities, other people, and things to keep me busy.  If I actually spent time alone with myself, I fear seeing the hurt, pain, and loneliness within me. My mind was filled with negative voices and thoughts. I avoided spending much time with myself, as this time alone meant dealing with this void and loneliness, so I simply avoided it.  The dependency I had for others, activities, work, and other things kept my mind occupied so I avoided feeling this pain, hurt, and loneliness. Sometimes, I could feel this aching pain in my chest where I could hardly breathe.

Now, my time alone is filled with peace, joy, and absolute silence. It is quieting just spending peaceful time with myself, and I feel full within. The world feels lighter and brighter, and I don’t have a care in the world even when I am overwhelmed at work. I don’t seek or need other’s approval, and I am perfectly happy with myself as I am where I am. My world feels complete just as it is.  I am actually content now.

With all the Emotional Release practice to heal my childhood abuse and trauma, and the Observing Ego practice to release my ego and the fear I felt sometimes every minute of every day, I am experiencing so many new feelings for the first time.  It feels very much like a child growing up, and seeing the world with a fresh pair of eyes.

I am pleasantly surprised and awed by my new experiences and feelings of freedom.  May you find freedom from your dependencies. Blessings of healing love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights)

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Author: Brooke Chang

Hi, I'm Brooke who will be taking you on a healing journey to a more joyful life. I will serve as your guide on this healing journey sharing my insights, knowledge and experiences. I hope you will join me! View all posts by Brooke Chang