PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

During awakening, we see the world through wide angle lenses, like a camera.  What I mean by this is that we can see ourselves and others more objectively, similar to taking a photo.  As I watch my world around me, I see everyone trying to find the right person to love them and fill that void within.  We move from person to person seeking this love, but we never seem to find it.

This search is futile as I have discovered because what we lack is love within ourselves for ourselves.  My intuition tells me much about myself and others, as I can sense other’s thoughts, intentions, and even future events. Many times, I sense something happening before it happens.  This has happened during most of my life.

During one relationship, I sensed that the man in my life was about to leave me, and I had a dream about it.  The next morning, I asked him if this was true.  He looked stunned, and denied it.  However, within a week, he told me he was leaving and moved out of our apartment.  I had many relationships like this, and now I realized that I was seeking to fill this void within me through others.

Now, I am taking a very different approach as I failed so many times before in my search. I have decided to be alone to learn self love by taking care of myself financially, physically, and emotionally.  For the first time in my life, I truly feel free, soaring like a bird without fear, without a care, and without a safety net.  Self love means freedom from dependency whether financial, physical, or emotional.  I feel I am getting closer and closer to a destination, wherever it is.  (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)