PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

This concept of free will.  Does it truly exist?  I have discovered certain truths about my life that may or may not relate to your life, but here goes!  I have always been of the belief that I determine the outcome of my life, including who I marry, where I live, and what career I choose, etc.

This belief was truly tested four years ago when my Kundalini energy rose. Within my free will belief system, I was unhappy in my life with an unfulfilling career, a marriage where we were just good friends, friends in my life who I did not trust and could not rely upon, and nonexistent relationship with my parents.

All this changed when my Kundalini energy rose. I decided to leave my marriage which dissolved without any conflicts, as my ex-husband helped me move out, and we are still good friends.  I heard a calling for the first time to help with and work on sexual assault cases on a college campus in a small rural community.  This is not the place I would have chosen because I always have lived in large cities.  When I applied for the job at this college, it came easily as if this job was created for me. Although the work is very arduous and stressful during the past three years, the people who stood in my way of this mission fell away, and others were brought to help me.

I also have attracted certain people into my life that I ordinarily would not have attracted as if they were chosen for me.  Many of them I would never have attracted in the past.  So is there truly free will? It is as if there is a higher order of things that feel organic and natural that is not within the control of my smaller self or ego.

I am of the belief now that we have a certain amount of free will, but there is a higher path already chosen for us before our birth onto this earth.  How do we know we are on this path?  The events, people, and situations come to us organically and naturally without hurdles, obstacles, or tragedies.  This is how I know that I am on the right path of this higher purpose for my life.

My ego may not agree with this path and I frequently will feel great internal resistance. There are days I want to quit my job, leave this small community, and escape my current life.  However, the voice within that is my higher self tells me that this is the right path for my life.  I now understand that my internal resistance is futile.  So, I follow this path that is right for my life, and what unfolds still awaits me.  (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)