PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

Recently, I learned a difficult life lesson that took me four years to learn.  As a victim of childhood abuse, we are blamed for the situation of abuse, we are lied to about the situation, and we are manipulated by our abusers.  As an adult, we engaged in similar dynamics in our relationships.  In one relationship, I was accused of being unreasonably jealous.

Jealousy is a sign of distrust when the person we must trust is not honest with us and/or with themselves about certain situations.  I have come to realize that my instincts were right all along, and that my jealousy stemmed from this distrust.  Since that time, I have not felt jealousy toward others in similar situations.

In this dynamic, I was being blamed for the situation and accused of being at fault. During the course of this relationship, I began to doubt my intuition, and even blamed myself for these feelings. After leaving this relationship, I began to listen to that inner voice of my intuition again.  Always trust your intuition, if you sense something is wrong, then it probably is, so get yourselves out of the situation.

With this change, my life has flourished as I bought my first home and created a sanctuary for myself.  I have found good friends who I trust, and treat me with respect and love.  I have let go of others who do not.  My career is taking off with a new staff, budget, and important mission for the university where I work, even with my difficult supervisor miraculously retiring.

What I have found is that when we are on the right path, our lives are rich, rewarding, and effortless.  When we are not, it is full of struggles, heartbreak, and suffering.  It may have taken me four years, but all the chaos, heartbreak, and suffering have brought me to the right path for my life as I am so grateful for these blessings. (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)