We are all attending the school of life whether you want to admit it or not. Life is a place where we learn our life lessons and are tested to see if we have truly learned these life lessons. This really didn’t sink in until recently as I look back on my own life and reflect on the bigger picture. Here is my story.
About five years ago, I was brought someone who served as an instrument for my life lesson and mirrored and reflected back the emotional landscape of my soul. He was a soul connection from a past life who caused a very hurtful and painful trauma in that past life and in my current life. He reflected back to me all the emotional injuries from this life and my past lives. It was terrifying for me to have all this reflected back to include the traumas, abuses, and heartaches of my past and present.
Through this person, I was able to see that I did not love myself, had self loathing, was unable to protect myself, and had no idea what was healthy or wanted in my life. Being with him was very painful because he represented all the things that was not working in my life and unhealthy for my soul life. When we finally parted, I realized that he represented emotional wounds from my present and past that I never let go and released. He represented the emotional burden that I carried around for many lifetimes.
Letting him go allowed me to release all this emotional baggage that my soul carried around, including the dysfunctional, dependent, and addictive dynamics with things, situations and people, allowing myself to be abused by others, tolerating disrespectful and deceitful behaviors, and being treated as second best. It was the dark night of the soul experience for me to acknowledge that I allowed and voluntarily engaged in this relationship. This was a major life lesson for me to learn about myself.
After I let him go, and felt a big release from carrying around this heavy emotional burden, others subsequently were sent to me with similar behaviors and traits. Recently, I realized that these are the tests after my major life lesson. It is intended to test me to see if I truly learned my life lessons. I am happy to report that I passed my test. After a short time of interacting wit this subsequent person, I disengaged with him, although we remain friendly with no animosity.
Certain people and events are brought into our lives who cause disappointments and heartache. Closely observe your interactions with them. They are intended to teach you something about yourselves and are your major lessons of life. If you take this opportunity to learn these life lessons, it will lead to major breakthroughs and transformations for your soul, and you finally will pass the tests. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
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