When we are on a spiritual journey of emotional healing and growth, there will come a time that we are traveling in unfamiliar territory. This is where I am now. What feels unfamiliar is how I am interacting now with my world. I am not interested in dependency of others, so I feel disinterested in becoming entangled with others either romantically or with their drama. It just is not interesting or neccessary for my life now.
I feel very certain about how I want to spend my time, and don’t waste time doing things I don’t want to do. Recently, someone invited me to a football game and tailgating which I dislike and thanked him, but declined the invitation. I have stopped pacifying and trying to please others, so I don’t do those things anymore, and I feel such relief because my self esteem no longer is dependent on others liking me.
I am moving forward in my life without knowing the outcome or trying to control the outcome. I am listening to my inner voice on how to best proceed. It feels like flying in a fog in a plane without nagivational equipment to help me find my way. I am moving forward only with my intuition and a little scared with anticipation. My world feels competely differently now, and what a ride!
Is this how freedom feels? Is this living without attachment? Is this enlightment? I don’t yet know the answer to my questions. It certainly feels foreign, but uncharacteristically comfortable. My life is no longer influenced or dependent on others, and I move forward sometimes with obstacles in my way, but it is not stressful and debilitating as my life was earlier.
Here I go and where I land, I do not know. I feel lighter and lighter, and the weight of my past is falling away. This is the pure joy of the spiritual journey, and this is what soaring like a bird feels like. May you find your journey into the heavens! (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
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Beautifully put young lady. It is an amazing feeling…freeing…and an incredible ability to create, instead of reacting to a world that will no longer exist.
Your view from here on in…is the soaring of an eagle…the budding of a flower…and each perspective will be as magic as the last.
Namaste…may the love of self, the power it is built on, be an eternal part of what you are now becoming…unconditional 🙂
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I cried when I read your comment. It has been such a long struggle through many lifetimes of suffering, pain, and tears to finally feel this miracle that is my life now. I am eternally grateful and humbled by my amazing experiences. Sending love and peace!
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To you also kind lady…all that went before is the creating of that miracle…now, in appreciating that miracle for what it is, you can just be you…the awareness that is unconditional love.
Love and light for your new journey 🙂
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Or flying blind through fog… which can be quite delightful if you allow the magic to seep in to the experience. I think a lot of us are experiencing similar feelings. It is unexpected and puzzling at times, but freeing. Paradoxes reign in the new territory of feelings.
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts, and may love and peace be with you always!
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