Tonight as I sat at dinner, I realized that I have overstayed my time here, and am so ready to move on. In the last month, I have been occupied with painting, cleaning, and repairing my home just to show and sell it. In addition, I have been finding a rental home in California, packing, moving, hiring movers, and finishing my current job.
It became very clear to me this evening that I have overstayed my time in this place, and I have exhausted all the reason for my stay. Maybe it’s just out of shear exhaustion that simply just want this phase of my life to be completed and over. I know there will be many more challenges ahead of me with my family and a very stressful new job.
Any sadness or lingering melancholy was gone tonight. It is very clear that I have completed all I needed to do here, and said my goodbyes to everyone I needed to. I have no regrets, and also am no longer sentimental about my departure. I guess I have completely let go.
I must say that my last moments here reflect most of my memories here. Most of my time here has been full of lessons. After these lessons, I remember saying to myself, I shall NEVER repeat this again. When I completed this process of selling my home today, I decided I will never be a home owner again, as I will simply rent my home and use my money to travel the world.
Sometimes, how we enter a situation is how we leave it as this occurred in the last phase of my spiritual journey. Lessons learmed, and never to repeat again. With this, I move foward. (Copyright 2017 Brooke Chang with All Rights Reserved)