Since March, 2011, when my Kundalini energy rose within me, I have learned so much about myself. Because of this intelligent energy, I am connected to the universal Infinite energy that guides me, helps me self reflect, and provides me a vision into myself and my world. This blessing comes at a price as not many understand my journey, my purpose, or my path. However, the Infinite sent me my twin flame to support me through this arduous journey.
I am eternally grateful for this gift of sight. Because I could not see earlier, I do not take this sight for granted, and this sight allows me to understand others deeply. Many of my life lessons seem to involve letting go of people through forgiveness. Many are brought into my life so that I may let them go. I am told very early on during my encounter with others as to who will stay in my life and who I must let go.
My life has transformed completely than prior to March, 2011. Much of my journey requires me to accept what I cannot change, change what I can change, and the wisdom to know the difference as in the Serenity Prayer. Every new mission or experience has a purpose, although I am not completely sure of that purpose until I go through the experience.
For example, when I began my first mission at a college in the mountains of Appalachia, the purpose was to overcome my anger, fear, and resentment toward my parents for my childhood abuse. My supervisor then represented my mother, and a man I dated then represented my father. I knew that I needed to forgive them in order to let them go. As I lived in this rural part of the country, I was brought dear, kind, and life long friends.
My next mission occurred at another college clear across the country. The purpose for this experience was to overcome my guilt of my inability to save myself and my brother from childhood sexual and physical abuse. This savior complex created all level of distress and frustration in my life. I imposed my fears and need to change others when they were not ready to make such a change. This letting go and forgiveness process includes forgiving myself and accepting what occurred earlier in my childhood.
Each time, I overcame one of these experiences, my life transformed and even my twin flame showed up because I am ready to unite with him. I know my life will transform once again becoming closer to my true self, and living a more authentic life. I give thanks every day for my gifts and blessings. (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved.)