During my recent spiritual/emotional healing work, I have come to realize that most of my fears relate to failure. I had not realized this until I had an honest conversation with myself recently. When I failed as a child, I was punished either emotionally or physically. I had no way of coping with failure as it was associated with trauma and terror. My parents hid their failures from others in shame and humiliation, and this is what I learned about failure.
As an adult, I have very little coping skills around failure, and now I seek to find this path through self forgiveness, compassion, and self love. I also am coping with the terror and trauma associated with failure which is triggered frequently. The terror is causing my childhood ailments to resurface such as ulcers and back pain. I am now facing down my terror and trauma around failure, since I recently began my own consulting firm and jazz band. All my childhood wounds are resurfacing forcefully to my awareness now.
The hard work of facing this monstrous fear of failure with the associated terror and trauma is now beginning for me. As each negative thought arises, I use Emotional Release Practice in conjunction with Detaching from Limiting Beliefs, and staying present with gratitude to cope. I hope that with each practice, my fears will begin to dissipate, and I can rewire my brain to a new way of believing and feeling. (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Your doing well my friend, facing them is the hardest part. But down deep when you feel you are in your worst place, there will be an aha moment when you finally see something. A click like moment and a tiny light will show you something. You’ll grab it with both hands, at last holding the beginning of that understanding that will set you free ❤️
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As always, thank you for your kind words of encouragement!🙏🏼❤️
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