During this phase of my spiritual journey, I have been constantly confronted with discord with those with whom I interact. When I interact with them, I feel their negative feelings, lack of self worth, fears, anger, etc. Most of the time, I do not react emotionally and understand that it is within them, and I try to comfort them.
However, during a few times, I became emotionally reactive. Since these reactions feel unpleasant, I try to distance myself from those individuals. I have come to realize that this is the wrong approach. This morning, I sat at breakfast feeling deep feelings of grief that I have suppressed or repressed within me. The flood of tears poured out in sobs, and I felt the little girl so beaten down and abused as a child. As I sat with these feelings, I allowed them to dissipate until they were gone dissolving this emotional pain.
When we react to others, it is because they have triggered this emotional pain within us. Even if we distance ourselves from them, others will trigger us at a later time, as the emotional pain is still within us. I realize that my emotional pain is deep within me in many layers. I earlier experienced apathy manifested as depression and anxiety, then anger and resentment, and now grief and fear. I don’t know how many more layers lie beneath, but I realize that it is part of my healing work.
I believe that I am being challenged now because I am able to handle these obstacles as I am stronger than I was earlier. It is uncanny how all my grief and fears are surfacing during my interactions with others. They are my teachers, and I am the student who must recognize what others are showing me about myself. (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Pathway to Joy and Healing 
It is an amazing journey when we begin to see those parts of ourselves we have buried deep. It is a rebirth to the light that we have been starved of, and an understanding of that love within it ❤️
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As always, thank you for your kindness!❤️🙏🏼
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