PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

I put Ego Death in quotes in the title because I did not experience ego death through the dark night of the soul as many have described it. My recent experience is a recession of ego that came quite suddenly like turning on or off a light switch. What I experienced was quite humane, and logical. During the last month or so, I had several awareness experiences in my life that allowed me to see myself for who I was, critical, self loathing, angry, judgmental, and suffering from low self esteem. This came about through events occurring in my work and personal life.

After these experiences and my awareness of my behaviors and actions, I took steps to apologize to those who I hurt to take responsibility for my actions.  In these efforts, I asked for forgiveness from others, but mostly from myself to accept who I was and what I had done. Then in a very sudden moment during an interaction with a friend who reacted in hurt because I pointed out some of her hurtful behaviors toward others and herself, I realized that my ego had responded in the same way as well.

This realization jolted me into understanding about my ego and my humanness, and in that very moment, my ego no longer haunted my life in the same way. This sudden experience was a shock to me, and has transformed my life in that moment. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)