PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

For those of us who suffered childhood abuse, we had a pretty difficult and stressful childhood.  Psychologists believe that we will remain at the emotional age of when we were traumatized until we heal those past emotional wounds. As we recover emotionally and begin to heal from our past, we experience that part of our childhood that we did not really experience as healthy children would have.

For example, my childhood abuse began when I was eight years old. I have always felt that I missed my tween and teenage years of my life. What I experienced during that period was stress, fear, anxiety, and sadness.  I never truly experienced joy, curiosity, wonder, and safety. This is what I currently am experiencing now in my life.

When I am out with my friends, I feel like a teenager, dancing, listening to music, rock climbing, or playing outdoors.  I am making up for my childhood. What is different for me now in my playing is the feeling of wonder, curiosity, fearlessness, and joy, much of what a healthy child would have felt.  There is just pure happiness of living in the moment without worry about the future and sadness of my past … just pure joy.

I give thanks for another chance at my life, and feel eternal gratefulness for this reward for my spiritual work.  I breathe a sigh of relief for where I am now in my emotional recovery.  With all my love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)