PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

For the past two years, I have been practicing truly letting go.   What I am learning to let go is the emotional wounds caused by father who was a central figure in my life. My experiences of abuse, abandonment as an infant, and his infidelity to my mother shaped the person I am today.  As a result of my experiences, I became an angry, vengeful, defensive, and jealous person.  There was just so much hurt that I needed to overcome in my life.

After practicing emotional release work, I began to heal layers of my emotional wounds. Please see the above tab on Emotional Release Practice to learn how to heal your emotional wounds.  Our emotional wounds exist in layers within our emotional landscapes.  The first layer was rage or anger that I released.  This layer is the most superficial layer of emotional pain and hurt, and is our most primal response to perceived hurt.  At least for me, the next layer involved other negative emotions such as distrust, jealousy, and suspicion.

The layer after that was fear.  Fear is the underlying feeling for nearly all negative emotions.  The fear I experienced was the fear of being abandoned and being unloved by my father that may reoccur in my life.  Within this layer, I released the fear of abandonment first, and now I am facing the fear of being unloved by my father.

Within the layer of fear of being unloved by my father was the need for approval and acceptance. As I release this layer of pain, I have begun to stand up for myself and not fear losing my father’s approval. I have ceased to seek the acceptance of my father, and see my father for the man he truly is that is emotional wounded and troubled himself, and suffering from dysfunctional behaviors and addictions.

As we work through these layers of emotional pain and hurt, we will finally reach the foundational layer that is fear, and must release this fear in order to move onto a healthy, functional, happy, and peaceful life for ourselves. ~ Blessings and love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)