My Stages of Emotional Healing through Releasing the Ego

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During the past two years, I have gained some insights into emotional healing process.  After the rise of my Kundalini, I experienced many energy blocks in my chakras and energy field resulting in physical pains and discomforts.  During these two years, I worked feverishly to heal my emotional landscape in order to release these energy blocks. Many of this recovery process corresponded with the maturity and unveiling of my higher self through releasing ego.

The first stage involved realization and acknowledging of my emotional landscape. This involved identifying my emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that I experienced in my childhood.  As an adult, this pattern of abuse continued in my life that I acknowledged and admitted to myself.  As s result of my emotional history, I developed destructive behaviors, judgments, and thoughts about myself and others.

During the second stage of emotional recovery, I began to change my perception about myself, including how I perceived my appearance,talents, and life through self love or unconditional love.   I became more compassionate toward myself, and as a result, I became less critical and judgmental, and more compassionate towards others, also known as nonjudgment.  My self esteem improved and I began to like myself more and more.

During the third stage, I began the practice of detachment or nonattachment where I no longer continued dependency relationships.  I began to give up co-dependency relationships by leaving those relationships behind.   Dependency is when we need others to survive in the world.  We know we are no longer emotionally dependent upon others, when they leave us or cannot meet our expectations, but we are not angry or upset at them.

In this fourth stage, I am in the process of learning surrender or nonresistance.  I practice living without expectations of outcome with others and events.  I finally understand that the more I resist, the more I suffer.  I come to accept my life as it is without trying to control every aspect of my life, and I have peace by allowing the Universe to take care of the rest.

I use emotional release practice, Observing Ego practice, and Accessing the Higher Self as my main methods of healing my emotional landscape. This can be found on my Blogsite homepage if you wish to try these practices.

During each of these stages that I experienced, I released more and more of my ego during each stage.  I am reacting less to things I cannot control in my life, I give myself compassion when I fail, and I do not expect anything from others, but graciously accept what others give me.

These may not be the stages of emotional healing for you, or in the same manner, but I hope you find this helpful.  May you find emotional healing within, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

2 responses to “My Stages of Emotional Healing through Releasing the Ego”

  1. Your blog is amazing. I have been experiencing a two-year long awakening that began August of 2011 when I threw my hands up in the air, looked up to the sky and declared, “God would you please help me change my life by the time I turn 40? I can’t live like this forever.” And so it began. I turn 40 next month and it has been quite a process. All the clearing you speak of here has happened similarly to me. I’ve met soul mates along the way who have taught me loving yet painful lessons that have progressed my healing. I’ve wept, keened, curled up into a ball and sobbed in emotional grief wondering if I was going crazy. My mind was in a fog for a year- I could barely function at work. And at my worst point this past January I became convinced spirituality was completely evil, of Satan, and I nearly lost my mind. I frightened those around me and I think I had a psychotic/psychic break that was the turning point in my healing because I was forced to open my heart and let all the self-hatred and self-judgment that was a result of my abusive childhood flow free. It was… pain and suffering like no one can understand. Lonely. Isolated. Dark. Fearful. Crazed. And life-changing. The Divine guided me and protected me along the way so I did not harm myself because there were moments where I chose risky compulsive behavior because I wanted to cause myself pain. I felt half-dead for two years. Yet here I am two years later and the veils are finally being lifted. I am alive again, reborn! I can see clearly now and know my Awakening has finally begun. I have quite a journey ahead of me but am looking forward to it, excited to see what God has planned for me. I can’t wait to read your blog because each of your listed categories reflect the experiences I’ve had in these last two years and also recent interests that have come to me in order to actively progress my healing. Thank you so much!

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    1. Hi Jennifer, I am happy for you for your awakening and transformation. I started this blog to share my awakening experiences, and that we are not alone in this intense and sometimes frightening process. You are brave and courageous to have come so far through the “Dark Night of the Soul” experience and came through the other side. It is only going through this darkness that we can reach and become the light. May you have light in your life always, Brooke

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