PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

Before we find our way back to our souls, we must get through the layers of pain and hurt that we have stored within our emotional landscape that is represented through our smaller selves or egos.  This pain is stored in layers that must be uncovered layer by layer.  Sometimes there are no many layers that it feels like unveiling endless layers of pain and hurt within.

As a child of sexual abuse at the age of eight by my father, my sexual experiences have been distorted and tainted.  Recently, I was told that the under layers of my sexual feelings has rage and anger buried in it.  Although I was uncomfortable in hearing this, I am not at all surprised.  Even as a child of eight, I was angered by my father’s abuse.  I wanted to be loved and nurtured by my father, but instead he used me for his own sexual pleasure because of his own emotional pain and wounds.

In order to overcome this anger within me, I must forgive the trespasses against me by my father and others who have engaged in similar behaviors.  Until I forgive, my smaller self and ego will continue to obsess about these wrongs against me, and react under my ego’s indignation. May you find healing through forgiveness, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)