PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

After many years of being married, and now divorced. I cherish my aloneness. I believe I got married for fear of being alone and needed protection as a result of my childhood abuse.  I am in a very different place now that I am strong enough emotionally to protect myself.  My life is filled with good friends, fun interests, joy of working with college students, and I am generally living a fulfilling life. I am reluctant to give up this freedom to be with another. I lost myself in my marriage that was a sad realization for me.

I understand how many may choose to be alone with themselves.  I no longer have a need to couple that is very different from my life earlier. It is growing up emotionally for me that has allowed me to feel this independence and living without fear. It is very liberating to finally live under my own terms instead of living under the fear created by my ego and reacting to it. It is like being released from prison and never to return.  How beautiful is that? Love and light.