PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

For most people, we learn to love, nurture, and comfort through our mothers. I did not bond with my mother as an infant as I was raised by my grandmother. However, what my mother taught me was invaluable.  Through my mother, I learned ways to overcome adversity and hardship.  My mother’s emotional and psychological instability as a result of her abuse and trauma in her life taught me that I deserve and must live a different life than hers.

Through this lifetime, I am sent women like my mother to overcome my adversity and hardship.  The women I have attracted are emotionally insecure, psychologically unstable, extremely manipulative, and exhibit inappropriate boundaries.  I understand that these behaviors are likely the result of the abuse and/or trauma they suffered in their lives as well.

That being said, as I attract these women into my life, I must learn to deal with this adversity and overcome this hardship.  I have learned these lessons recently as I am able to objectively observe what is happening and not react to these women’s behaviors, actions, or manipulations.  Sometimes, I laugh at the situation with irony and sarcasm, and other times, I simply ignore them. I believe that once I overcome this, I will no longer attract these women into my life after the lesson is learned.

In particular, my female supervisor falls into this category.  As she was asked to leave her position recently, I know she no longer has power over me.  The truth is she never had power over me, as it is I who gave her this power. I no longer seek her approval or care about what she thinks.  I have chosen to take back my power in my life, and learn the spiritual art of non-reaction and observation.  It feels so powerful to just watch, observe, and remain non-judgmental when she is acting out or manipulating me.

Peace now fills my life, even under the terrible pressures of my job and the responsibilities of taking care of students who have been sexually and physically assaulted.  Through these lessons, I finally found my path to freedom from control, manipulation, chaos, and drama from these women.  May you find your path to freedom. (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)