PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

When we heal our emotional wounds, the world will appear less frightening and scary place.  We realize that we are able to protect ourselves, and finally see the magic and beauty that is our  world.  This appearance of things is a reflection of what is within ourselves.

For four years, I was in love with someone who most resembles my father energetically and emotionally.  He was not only sexually abusive and unkind towards me, but he did this to a number of other women including his wife.  He was involved with a married woman, and constantly sought the attention and affections of other women including those on the Internet while he was still involved with me.  Finally, he sexually assaulted me, gave me a deadly STD, and convinced me to lend him money and help him financially.

Ironically, I saw all this clearly and still I engaged with and loved him, as I hoped he would miraculously change.  I am in the process of forgiving myself for allowing him into my life.  In retrospect, I realize I needed this experience with so much pain and suffering to help me heal the wounds that are within me. I needed to see this clearly within myself and to realized that this situation has been repeating for many lifetimes.

Through this life lesson, I learned that I needed to let go of my father and the abuse and hurt he caused me.   If I fail to heal these wounds, similar men will return into my life repeating my childhood abuse over and over again.  This energetic attraction resulted from my unhealed emotional wounds, and the emotional  connection felt familiar like my childhood abuse that I associated with love.

These years have been the worst period of suffering and pain that I experienced and endured since my childhood abuse, but an experience I needed to face about my life so that I could heal and prevent this from reoccurring in my future.  I am grateful for being able to see the magic and beauty in my life now.  (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)