PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

A common occurrence in people who were abused as children is the fear of rejection and failure created by our egos.  Maybe facing rejection and failure again in one’s life after being rejected and made to feel like a failure initially by our parents are just too hard to bear again.

In my emotional recovery work, I am exploring this emotional reaction within us.  I have observed this behavior in myself particularly when it comes to my relationships and jobs. I always have excelled in school and whatever I have tackled, but somehow the idea of failure is completely unacceptable.  I would prefer to quit something before I fail.

Recently, I find myself wanting to flee from my current job in fear of failure.  I also have felt this same fear when someone in my life is about to leave me, and I feel this overwhelming feeling of needing to run.  Honestly, I am a runner.  This need to run has resulted in my moving all over the country, and changing jobs many times.  I have left relationships and friendships as a result of all this moving around.

This running away is from the overwhelming fear of failure and rejection.  This awareness makes me sad, since I never developed any real deep relationships or friendships in my life, and even if I have, they are far away. With this awareness, I need to cope with my fears and change future behaviors.

The difference between leaving for a better opportunity and running away from my fears is in the motivation.  What drives us to do something is always critical to be aware of.  ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundlaini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)