PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

I spent the day communing with nature hiking in the mountains where the trees are budding and turning shades of green.  As I felt the cool breeze against my face and crisp air in my breath, I began to feel within the work that I have done in the past few weeks.

My painbody recently has been triggered nonstop, since I have been watching ego like a bystander and resisting any reactions.  My ego is constantly bringing up my insecurities, fears, and doubts.  I know ego is fighting hard now, knowing and hearing that I want it to release me from its hold.  I have watched myself with others as I feel negative emotions rising within me, but refusing to react.  I am catching onto ego’s insidious tricks of making me question my spiritual work, the choices I have made, and path that have chosen.

Recently, I have found my relationships in my old life to change dramatically.  I no longer need those who formerly pacified my ego. Therefore, I am able to let go of my past codependent relationships.  As I become more whole, I no longer need these relationships to feel whole.  These are the steps to overcoming ego.  When we no longer are required to pacify ego’s needs, we can begin to free the hold by ego.

As I feel ego’s grip loosen, I feel sadness for the loss of my old life; it is the only life that I have known.  I grieve for the losses of my old friends, relationships, and others who cannot come with me on this journey.  As I shed my tears, I also know that I will find inner stillness, peace, and oneness with All.  I will not feel alone, I will know self love, I will give unconditional love, and I will live without expectations of outcome. This place that I see in my dreams is everything that I want for my life. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)