PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

I finally am seeing the manifestations of my spiritual practice to my daily life where it has made a significant impact.  My lack of judgment and more compassionate nature have attracted less judgmental and critical people into my life. As a direct result, the quality of my daily life has improved dramatically, where I feel more joyous, content, and happy. I must confess that for most of my life, I was not a happy person, full of anxiety, depression, fear, and thought about killing myself many times.  I was extremely critical, judgmental, vindictive, and mean.  I hurt the very people I profess to love, and did things that I am not proud of hurting my own self esteem.

Now, all the negative people tend to stay away from me, and the negative people who still are attracted to me, I find them too complicated and difficult to be around, so I decline invitations to be with them.  I also listen to my intuitive feelings and dreams warning me to stay away from certain people and gravitate toward others.

I am more able to stay in the moment or the Now in whatever I do, be it writing poetry or music, creating my art, rock climbing, hiking, kayaking, scuba diving, or enjoying time with friends.  I am actually joyful and happy in the moment regardless of what I am doing. I no longer live in fear and have a higher purpose through my work.  Even work is rewarding for me now, since I no longer fear being fired, reprimanded, or criticized.  I experience moving moments each week at my job bringing tears of joy.  Go figure!!!!

What this tells me is that when our internal world is at peace, then our outer world will follow.  We live who we are; I am the perfect example of this mantra. My labor of love to heal myself emotionally from my childhood abuse and abandonment, learning to love myself, learning to love others unconditionally, practicing compassion, vigilantly scrutinizing ego, and attempting to live without expectations of outcome are finally manifesting the joy, peace, and freedom I prayed for in my life.  Manifest your own destiny. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)