PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

In spiritual and emotional healing work, we work so hard to overcome our past trauma. In this practice, we wonder how we know we are recovering and what road signs are along the way as these indicators.  I speak only from my own personal experience, of course, and this is what I have learned.  After doing three years of “Emotional Release Practice” and “Observing Ego Practice,” (both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage) to overcome my childhood abuse and trauma, I have been experiencing signs of change in my life.

The first series of changes had to do with anger, fear, and panic as I experienced them regularly, sometimes daily.  When I encountered those who remind me of either of my parents or situation similar to my interactions with them, this overwhelming fear and panic would take over me and I would physically run away from them or the situation.  It overwhelmed and controlled my daily existence, and I avoided these people and situations at all costs.  This began to change after about two years into my spiritual and emotional healing work.  Each interaction with these individuals or situations began to get easier, and my fear and panic subsided over this past year.

It is only very recently that I no longer react anymore, and how it feels is like being with an inanimate object like a chair or table.  I simply see them as something unable to harm me.  This is even true if they threaten to hurt me or scream and yell at me, as I simply do not react or respond to their threats. Nothing they say or do can affect me as I no longer feel the emotional wound within me now.

When we recover and overcome trauma, the way we behave begin to change in that we will take more risks, we become unafraid, we think independently, and we face the unknown as a challenge rather than something to fear.    We also don’t take anything personally, even if someone is screaming and yelling at us or calling us names. We know that it isn’t about us as we no longer experience hurt that is caused by our own emotional wounds.    It is a very powerful feeling.

The next stage of my recovery is to let go of trying to rescue my parents as they have chosen their paths.  Although I do not agree with them and still love them very much, I must respect where they are in their emotional state and allow them to find their own way.  If they continue to hurt themselves and suffer, it is a choice they have made, and I must honor that.  I send them love every day and pray for their recovery if not in this lifetime, then maybe in their next. Sending healing love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)