PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

During this most recent period of emotional healing and spiritual growth, the biggest change for me is the overall emotional feeling of peace.  I have finally let go of the drama, turmoil, and chaos in my life as that was my emotional landscape and childhood history.  I was most comfortable in this instability, and even created my own when things felt “too” peaceful in my life.  There were lots of excuses to engage in unhealthy behaviors of infidelity, holding grudges, retaliation, back stabbing, and controlling others.

I even did these things under the guise of helping others, but the truth is that it was the drama, turmoil, and chaos that I craved.  When I didn’t have my own , I sought this in the lives of others under the excuse of helping them, and even found ways of creating my own by seeking relationships outside of my earlier marriage. Only after we have awareness of our own behaviors can we change these behaviors to healthier ones.

These behaviors are patterns that were created in my childhood that I, then, perpetuate as an adult.   We are not bad or evil people for engaging in these behaviors as we may have little or no awareness that we are even doing it.  If we have little or no awareness of our own emotional landscapes, then it is difficult to make the necessary changes for healthier lives for ourselves.

Living with this new found internal peace has allowed me to truly help others objectively, as I no longer project my own cravings for drama, turmoil, and chaos onto the lives of others.  I have become the peace to pull others into now instead of the storm that I had been creating and living in.  It is with gratitude that I have found my way out of the storm.  Blessings of peace, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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