PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

When I awoke today, I realized that in my current stage of recovery I need to stop wishing to be well and just be.  Since childhood, I have wanted to feel trauma free, be happy without sadness and fear, and live with lightness in my life.  Even as a child, I knew that this was possible but just that I was not living this life.  As an adult, I pursued this dream looking for any forms of healing through psychotherapy, music, art, and dance therapy, yoga, Chi Gong, Acupuncture, Reiki, body work; you name it, I’ve tried it! I simply wanted to feel well.

After my Kundalini energy rose three and half years ago, I continued to push myself relentlessly to healing.  It is time for me to let go of this great desire to be well, and just be in whatever place I currently am in.  I have felt a great shift happening within me, and I believe this is part of the shift through complete surrender.  In my mind, I understand that this dramatic change is upon me again for the second time after the rise of my Kundalini energy since March 2011.

For me, this shift means not so much a physical change as it was the first time, but a dramatic emotional change with physical changes in my life to follow.   I believe learning to completely surrender is part of this shift to my future without the need to control it but simply to live it. This means truly living without expectations of outcome, and learning to trust that my life will be taken care of. So, I wait patiently as my future unfolds before me. (Copyright 21014 Awakening Journey will All Rights Reserved)