PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

Trust comes when we have healed the pain and hurt in our hearts.  When we heal the heart, we trust, we love, and we lose fear of being unworthy and the fear of loss.  It has been a long and arduous journey for me involving many lifetimes.  My heart was fragile, broken, and wounded for so long that I do not recall a time before now that I existed differently. My transformation was not through light and beauty, but through darkness and pain.

It took me seemingly miles of walking through my past and releasing all the hurt and pain I held in my heart, that I harbored and even relished because that was all I knew.  There is no other way of being that I knew, lived, or understood due to my childhood abuse, trauma, and betrayals.  My heart had hardened and my anger protected me as if no one can ever hurt me again because of my hard shell.

All this changed when my Kundalini energy rose in March 2011, and I was given another chance at my life.  With new insights and intuition, I charged forward into the darkness and despair of my past to face the most horrible fears that I can imagine.  These fears did not destroy me, but made me stronger because I proved to myself that I can survive even my worst fears! I did not give up, but persevered one day at a time.

Since releasing my heart blockages as there were many, I have softened my hard edges. Now, I love without condition, trust with less fear, and laugh at myself a lot when I revert to the familiar old ways.  The old patterns are breaking down, and I am finding new patterns through this love and trust.  I have become the woman I dreamed about becoming.  She is beautiful, dignified, kind, and loving.  She is soft, and she is within me. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)