PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

Although I have been on my spiritual journey for four years and working on my emotional healing for most of my life, I realize yesterday that my hard work is just beginning.  I only have released enough blockages and healed enough emotional wounds to prepare me for what is before me, the core issues that plagued my soul lives.  This is the hard and scary work that I have avoided and been unable to tap into in my life because my fears and emotional blockages caused me to run for safety.

This is where I stand, face to face at the threshold of my emotional landscape.  It is not pretty, but it’s mine.  I have been forced to see myself clearly reflected back through the man I love who I believe to be my soul mate.  I ran from him for four years, as he emotionally ran away with a married woman living on the other side of our country.  This dynamic simply perpetuated our coping mechanisms used throughout our lives and continued the dysfunctions that plagued our lives resulting in continued failed relationships and other emotional problems, as well as preventing us from living at our highest potential, and living an authentic life. We both have decided to stop running.

This is my new beginning to clear the hard core blockages, and truly face my responsibilities of the failures in my life.  What was my responsibility in all these failures?  How can I change my behaviors?  What can I do differently this time around?  What addictions and dependencies must I give up to have a different life? What was the underlying cause of my failures? What coping mechanisms did I use to deal with my life problems, including escape, repression/suppression, or expression?  I wrote an earlier post on “Understanding How We Handle Emotions” explaining how our minds handle our emotions.

These revelations about my emotional life will propel me to the next stage of my emotional healing, and I am hopeful that I will finally live the life that I have dreamed ever since I was a child in this lifetime.  I will finally find the peace and love in my life as I will find these within myself.  (Copyright 2015 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)