Ego’s Hold

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If you have been reading my blog, you know that I am struggling with releasing the ego.  This is a critical stage of spiritual growth, and feels like climbing Mt. Everest.  What I have observed within me is this tug of war.  I would fluctuate between utter freedom without worry or fear, and then fear and dread that would overwhelm me.  This would occur throughout my day, sometimes several times a day.  I also am physically and mentally exhausted by this process.

I know how important it is for me to get over this big hurdle.  I equate it to rock climbing where I must pull my body over a huge rocky ledge, and I am psychologically overwhelmed at the thought of this prospect.  Like rock climbing though, I know that I will overcome all these obstacles that’s why I am a rock climber!  Above is a picture of me rock climbing.

As I proceed through the ego releasing stage, I am aware of my fears of the unknown, and even my fears of the Dark Night of the Soul stage.  Surrender and letting go is the way through this process, and giving ourselves unconditional love and compassion when we regress.  This is the way to self love when we are kind, gentle, and compassionate to ourselves during this sometimes frightening and foreign experience.  May you find love and compassion for yourself, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

4 responses to “Ego’s Hold”

  1. I sometimes wonder why we got into the tug of war to begin with. Letting go ends the war.

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    1. Hi Chico, Those are words of wisdom that I will remember. Namaste, Brooke

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  2. I commend you on your journey of self-discovery and growth. It is challenging and courageous – not for the lite hearted to undertake! In the tantras the ego is offered to the Goddess. There is a reason the dakinis, shakts, yoginis and others are depicted as powerful warrior goddesses ready to take off ones head. Stay true to yourself and you will succeed and stand up like those great ones and proclaim Victory!

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    1. Hi Gregory, Thank you for your words of encouragement and support. My journey has tested me to my limits, but I persevere. Eternal light, Brooke

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