PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

As I proceed in the spiritual work, I am coming upon a period of mourning. That mourning involves in loss of my childhood.  At the age of eight, I suffered childhood abuse and trauma.  From that time forward, my childhood experiences changed dramatically.  As I begin to understand my losses of joy, security, innocence, and love, I feel deep sadness about these losses.

We also attract exactly what we need in our lives when we need them. Recently, I signed up for a scuba certification class for my summer sailing trip in the Mediterranean Sea.  In my class are two girls, one ages 12 and other 14.  They are such innocent girls who love to swim and seem very happy.  Scuba require a buddy system that always pairs us with a partner in event of an emergency.  Yesterday, I was paired with the younger girl.

While we learned how to breath, and operate our equipment underwater in a pool, this little girl became afraid and panicked.  I encouraged her and helped her calm down. It felt like helping myself as a little girl. I will have several more days of interaction with them, so I will get to know them better. We played in the water in our scuba gear together for the afternoon.  I needed be around kids about the age that I struggled as a child, and attracted this into my life.  There have been other circumstances like this, but I did not understand my purpose with them.

As I drove home, I sobbed in tears for the loss of my childhood, but felt blessed to have this experience.  It became clear what I need to learn through my interactions with these girls, and I am truly grateful for this understanding.  I know that I am being taken care of by a higher power who is looking out for me. Blessings and love to you, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)