PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

This is has been a period of reflection of what still remains unhealed in my emotional landscape.  What I have found is not always what I am happy to uncover.  Within my landscape still remains fear of trust, fear of being hurt, and fear of rejection.  These are all emotions that humans feel, but for me, it has triggered anxiety and panic in my relationships.  My instinct is to run away from my fears, and they appear to just return with the next relationship and so on, and so on.  But this is my emotional landscape and what I must come to accept and overcome.

In the last few days, I began to face my past fears.  I vowed to change my life so I can have healthier and more loving relationships, and I wish for this with every ounce of my being.   I know deep in my heart that this is possible for me, and I can envision a very different life for myself where I am trusting, loving, and living without fear.  When I awoke yesterday after a night of energetic releases, a blockage in my sacral/root chakra dissolve. I  felt completely differently the next morning where I felt lighter, freer, and less burdened.

My past of feeling unworthy and unlovable began to fall away, and my fears of rejection and being hurt again also began to dissipate.  I realized that my emotional responses to others has little to do with others and more to do with what still remains unhealed within my emotional landscape.  If I feel slighted by another, it is because I feel unworthy within.  If I feel that I can’t trust my loved ones, it is because I fear being hurt or rejection.

It is coming to this realization that we are able to move forward and heal our emotional wounds in order to have a different life.  The first step to emotional recovery is recognizing what is still unhealed within ourselves, then we can do the hard work of confronting and healing those past wounds.  (Copyright 2015 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)