PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

As I just moved forward in my spiritual and emotional growth and healing very recently, I want to share what it feels like to you.  The strange thing about my process is that I needed to regress before I was able to propel forward.  Emotional growth feels more like an elastic band than a rope, as it is not completely linear and straight forward.  There are periods that you feel you are moving forward then other times of retraction and regression.

In the past few months, I attempted to push myself forward, but actually went through a period of regression of fear of the unknown. It was like dipping my toes in the cold ocean as the waves wash in then retreating onto the beach to get away from the waves.  It is that feeling.  What I needed was a catalyst to move me forward and someone who reminds me of my past recently dropped back into my life even for an instant, then bam!

I felt like being shot out of a cannon in my emotional growth.  I was aware of my emotions that rose from my ego, knew exactly what I needed to do, and worked through the emotional pain of my past.  Yesterday, this new feeling of complete freedom, and release came over my body.  It feels like I dropped this heavy weight that I had been carrying around my entire life.  I feel about 100 lbs lighter in my physical body.  It feels like I shed a heavy layer of armor covering my body that I needed for protection.

Since yesterday, I simply no longer feel unworthy, resentful, envious, jealous, hurt, or abandoned as these were my normal baseline feelings.  This is what people must feel like when they describe freedom, since that is exactly what it feels like to me.  When we have lived with pain and fears our entire life from our emotional wounds, and blame others for our own pain and fears, it is a horrible cycle, and becoming stuck in that cycle is even worse.   Our egos keep us in this cycle, then we become trapped in it and don’t even know it.

I use “Emotional Release Practice” and “Observing Ego Practice” both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage throughout the last three years of my spiritual journey to reach this point.  It has been a long and arduous journey so far, but all well worth it. Hopefully now, I will begin to live a different life.  I realize that there are more phases of emotional healing and growth for me, but I am relishing my recent achievements, and feeling free for the first time in my life.   May you find freedom from your past, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)