PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

As a result of my recent growth spurt in my spiritual growth and Kundalini awakening, I have a completely different perspectives of the events in my life, and as a direct result I have different feelings about my life.  I recently went back to my earlier posts in my blog during earlier phases of my recovery, and I see a very different person, than who I am now, with different inner perspectives and feelings.  My perspective was very ego-driven and based in victim mentality of fear of rejection, abandonment, and being unworthy, and full of hurt and anger.  I must admit that it was very difficult for me to read some of these posts, as my feelings are so different now.

After working so hard during these past three years to heal my past childhood abuse and trauma through “Emotional Release Practice,”  and struggling to begin releasing my ego through “Observing Ego Practice,” (both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage),  I am seeing a different perspective and experiencing healthier feelings.  As I read the events of my past, I now see these events so differently.  My earlier posts reflected a victim who needed vindication, revenge, and to be right about how terribly I had been treated by others.  Now, I see clearly what happened with the individuals I wrote about in a more objective and removed perspective.

After reading my earlier posts, I realize that these individuals really did love and care for me, but my own blinders prevented me from seeing it.  I also understand now that each person I wrote about have their own emotional “baggage” that resulted in the behaviors they exhibited.  Although they may have had good intentions, their behaviors were the result of their own emotional “baggage.”  Now I see this as neither good nor bad, but that it just is, as the sky is blue.  It is just my observation, as it does not deny the truth or reality of my situation, but there is no judgment attached.

This new perspective creates new feelings, not filled with anger and hurt, but acceptance, acknowledgment, and peace. With this new perspective, I no longer feel fear and pain that I earlier experienced.  I realize now that this is what being healed feels like, and where we find true peace in our lives.  May you find healing in your life, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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