PATHWAY TO JOY AND HEALING

I have found the secret to learning to trust as this is a huge hurdle for me. It is the willingness to open ourselves and hearts to others, and give our intentions that we will trust our loved ones by letting go.  It really has little to do with what another does or doesn’t do.  We must be willing to take that first step of trusting our loved ones by letting go of fear, anxiety, and feeling out of control. It is this simply.

This is what I have learned in this new stage of my healing process. I am confronting my worst fear that is intimacy and allowing someone I love into a very private and protected space in my heart.  I allow very few people into this space, and when they get too close, I begin to have a panic and anxiety attacks.  I clench my teeth and fist, close my eyes and hold on for dear life.  This is an old instinct.

What I have learned is the only way to move past this fear of feeling out of control is simply to let go. It takes great courage and faith that everything will be okay.  It’s like jumping out of an airplane as you can rationalize all day about how safe it is with a parachute and harness.  However, the bottom line is that it takes courage and faith to jump of of that plane, and your belief that you can do it!

This is where I have landed, seemingly like falling out of the sky with a parachute strapped to my back, and I just jumped.  There is a part of me that believes that all will be fine, and I will survive my jump.  So, just let go, have courage and faith, leave behind your fears, and make room for something better! (Copyright 2015 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)