Category: Transformation
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In the End
In the end, everything works out for the best. Over four years ago, I was involved in a destructive triangle with two Kundalini active people. As I was abused as a child, this was the dynamic from my childhood. These two individuals were married to others when they became emotionally and energetically involved. The irony…
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Family Karma
This weekend, I spent time with my favorite cousin. She is a schizophrenic who has recovered amazingly well and is living a full and productive life. Our time together was learning about each other, since we have not spent much time together since childhood. This was an important weekend together since it gave us the…
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Creating Our Illusions
Through addiction, we create an illusion for our lives. Some are addicted to people called codependency, some to places called destination addiction, some to substances such as drugs or alcohol, and some to activities such as work, gambling or gaming. Addiction is a form of self medication or negative coping skill we developed to deal…
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Building Trust
As many of my readers know about my history, my father was a philanderer who lied to my family to hide his philandering. As an adult, I became attracted to philanderers and liars. My resulting adult life was filled with angst of distrusting men and suspicious of their intentions and actions. In the recent past,…
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How It Begins, How It Ends
Tonight as I sat at dinner, I realized that I have overstayed my time here, and am so ready to move on. In the last month, I have been occupied with painting, cleaning, and repairing my home just to show and sell it. In addition, I have been finding a rental home in California, packing,…
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Through Dreams
In my dreams last night, I said goodbye to those in my past who I will not have an opportunity to say goodbye as I move onto the next phase of my journey. In my dream, I spoke to each person separately saying my farewells. My interaction with these important individuals who I encountered…
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First Step to Transformation
It has taken me most of this lifetime to find inner peace. It has always been illusive to me because I wanted to control everyone, everything, and all situations around me. As a person who experienced childhood abuse, this is the natural response after experiencing trauma. Most people are on auto pilot using the same…
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Gratitude for 2017
I have much gratitude going into 2017 as there is so much to be grateful for in my life. I am grateful for all the doors that closed in my life and the many situtaions that did not turn out the way I wanted them. In retrospect, those people, opporutnities, and situations were never meant…
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Living in Fear
Most of us may not even realize it, but we live with constant fear nearly every minute of every day. Fear is not just about being frightened about any particular thing, person, or event, it is a mental state. This is what I feared. I feared change, abandonment, rejection, trusting others, being unlovable, being unworthy,…
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